FearLESS

What is your biggest fear? I discovered this summer that I was a chicken! Yes a chicken...at least I was a chicken when it came to being at a camp located in the middle of nowhere. I was surrounded with nature! I'm originally from Indianapolis, IN...the middle of the city is where I am usually found. At school, the mall, or the local Starbucks was my address. But not this summer, summer of 06. My new address was Camp Hidden Falls in Bedford, IN...yeah Bed ford...didn't even know that existed! I was hired as a Camp Counselor. Sounds pretty awesome uh...well not exactly. I didn't care to much for kids but hey it was money so that I could come back to school, so I agreed to do it! Little did I know...I was about to be in for the ride of a life time, a life changing experience was about to take place...right before my very itchy watery red eyes! I discovered early on...to be more accurate it was the very first day, I was allergic to well...everything...nature that is! Here I am stranded an hour away from home with people I barely knew, with children, hot weather, which I hate! The first 2 weeks were the worst. I itched and sneezed constantly, I had to take more pills than an old sick granny to get my sinus and allergies under control. Little did I know my body was just adapting to an atmosphere that was unknown to me for more than a few minutes...NATURE! Don't get me wrong I love Gods creation, I love flowers, I love the sky at night, I love animals, ones without teeth!lol...but I finally became okay with nature!...now there was a bigger battle to fight! Orientation was over and know it was time to face my biggest fear...The Children!...I was excited and scared all at the same time! I knew that I was going to need God...a lot...more than I had ever needed him before, and he had gotten me through orientation and being sick, so I knew he could get me through the next 6 weeks of practically babysitting anywhere from 6-10 girls of different ages. Yes, every week the girls got older, i mean we got a new group of kids of different ages as the week before. So it was a struggle to cope with the first group of 6-8year old girls, those little...well I wont say what I want but...they changed my life, in good way, but definitely not in a easy way. I realized how much I really admired my mom for raising me...I had experienced a small taste of motherhood!lol...Well I suppose this is a really long story...but to make it short...I know love kids...i don't really want any but I don't mind working with them...I grew so much closer to God and I conquered fears....and most importantly I learned that being fearless doesn't mean having no fear...or lack of fear...we as Christians are suppose to fear God and God alone...so me being Fearless means...I fear Less than I did before...and honestly I feel I only fear God because God has given me to do all things through his son Jesus Christ!Phil 4:13! I love life, I love God and oh yeah I learned to play the guitar this summer! So I love playing the guitar and singing...oh yeah and I even got a tattoo of a treble clef with a heart in the middle to represent my inner love for music!I love LIFE!